randomness (depressed and stressed version)

I have no idea what I will be what I am going to do how I am going to die

What do I choose to struggle with?
I chose to struggle with uncertainty, insecurities over routine and boredom

Check list of daily routine:
go to bathroom
brush teeth
face scrub (optional)
wash face
apply toner
apply serum
apply moisturiser
get dressed
have breakfast

think about daily routine
check facebook, email, twitter whatever x 1000000

oops already lunch time
coffee after lunch
yoga (optional)
stretching
dealing with mental stress
day dreaming
time to do my nails, have a massage or write a blog

pole class
dinner
check facebook, email, twitter whatever x100000
shower, wash hair
blow dry hair
zzz

and I felt like I did nothing

and currently overhearing two girls bitching about some "so fake and so unprofessional" friends in english.

why am I still alive when I started to hate everything around me

Drafted on 18/2/2016